Reading, by Phillip Hoyle

Mom read to us kids with expression she had developed in high school drama. The five of us liked our introduction to children’s literature and to poetry—especially the poems she had memorized—and others she read out of books. It took a long time for me to start reading much on my own although I did like books, studying the pictures, reading the captions, and sometimes reading paragraphs. Still I didn’t read many books for myself until 8th grade when I discovered historical fiction, chapter books in story form. I soon became addicted to reading stories, a practice that continued uninterrupted until about age 42 when I went on a book fast. For a year I determined not to read any whole books.

My confession: During my fast I did re-read one favorite novel (perhaps Leslie Marmon Silko’s Ceremony) and then allowed myself one new novel (probably on a gay theme).

My success: I turned my free time into piano practice.

My practicality: I still consulted books when I had to teach a class or preach a sermon.

My learning: I already knew enough about the topics I was teaching so began relying more and more on my memory.

Perhaps I had read just too many novels beginning in junior and senior high school, during five years of undergraduate school, during three years of graduate school, and during two and a half years of graduate seminary. None of these books were required reading but they probably did help me keep balance in my life. I read many international books in translation thus broadening my view of the world. I read novels between semesters and years of schooling. I read on family vacations. Plus I read every assigned book and textbook and many more related to my studies.

I’m still at my reading although my practice has changed. I’ve added memoir to my list, also books about writing. I read quite a few books about visual arts as well, but now I spend more time writing and doing visual art projects. (Well I AM retired.) I’m reading books I borrow from several libraries, buy at bookstores, receive from family members, or find at ARC; and I keep reading and revising stories I have written. In my retirement I don’t read five books a week anymore but I often am reading five books at a time. In short, I continue my almost life-long practice of reading, and I love it.

Over the past several weeks I have been reading and re-reading Phillip Lopate’s To Show and To Tell, a fine book on essay writing. Lopate teaches non-fiction writing in the graduate program at Columbia University, NYC. On Tuesday I read through his very long suggested reading list and noted Benjamin Franklin’s Autobiography. On Wednesday I stopped by a used books store and was surprised to find the book on their shelves. Now I’m reading it, tickled by its style, intrigued by its information, analyzing its writing given what I’ve been learning from Lopate and other teachers, and taking note of how one of the founders of our country understood what he was doing. I never expected to read such a book but am so pleased I knew about it, stopped to look through it, and paid the five dollar price. I’m still reading. This book may take awhile.

© 6 November 2017

About the Author

Phillip Hoyle lives in Denver and spends his time writing, painting, and socializing. In general he keeps busy with groups of writers and artists. Following thirty-two years in church work and fifteen in a therapeutic massage practice, he now focuses on creating beauty. He volunteers at The Center leading the SAGE program “Telling Your Story.”

He also blogs at artandmorebyphilhoyle.blogspot.com

Death Genes, by Gillian

Our very own favorite
quote-maker, Benjamin Franklin, held that death and taxes were the only
certainties ……. in …… well …… life. Sorry Ben, but that’s not quite
right. Many many people escape taxes by fair means and foul; legal and illegal.
I have never yet known, nor even heard of, anyone escaping death.
It comes, inevitably, to us
all.
When we are young it’s
something, though inevitable for sure, that happens to other people; the old,
the sick, the careless, the unfortunate. But not to us. Oh, sure, some day. But
not now.
As we age, that
inevitability looms larger. It no longer peeps over a distant horizon but leaps
up on the front porch, like some Halloween specter, yelling,
“Booooo!” It hides, ready to jump out at us, in our TV, mailbox, newspaper
and telephone. It lurks around every corner. With the death of every loved one,
friend, casual acquaintance, or even that celebrity who seems always to have
been there, it comes closer.
They say that the death of
your second parent is one of the most traumatic events in life: loss squared. I
have no argument with that. Suddenly bereft; orphaned. Oh yes, that must be
dreadful when you’re six. But it’s not a whole lot better when you’re
sixty-six. It hurts like hell. You are left with no-one who knew you that well
or for that long. It’s like someone cut off your leg, and you had to start all
over again learning how to walk. You have to start all over again learning how
to live, cut adrift in reality. That’s how it felt to me, anyway.
And then, suddenly, it
seems, it’s almost time for your turn.
And, after all, death
doesn’t seem so bad. Even if you have no religion, or perhaps because you do,
death remains a mystery; but not such a very scary one. Unless, perhaps, you
truly believe in Hell Fire and Damnation, in which case it must be just
terrifying. But for me, anyway, simply facing the Great Unknown is really no
scarier than getting on a plane headed for some place I’ve never been before
and have no idea what to expect.
A shrug. A nap.
“Oh, well. We’ll find
out when we get there.”
At this stage, I think, most
of us do not really fear death itself, but rather the manner of our dying. Please,
we scream inside our heads to a God we may or not believe in, don’t let me
get something like Lou Gehrig’s Disease, fully cognizant, feeling death come
piece by agonizing piece. On the other hand, please don’t let me have
alzheimer’s and lose that very cognizance.
In their eighties, my
parents became the worst possible combination. My father was physically fit as
a fiddle, but had dementia. My mother was smart as a tack but had, after a
broken hip, been confined to a wheelchair. They were rendered totally incapable
of looking out for each other, and ended up in separate wings of the same
nursing home.
But, in the end, I have damn
good death genes.
My dad died first;
peacefully, in his sleep, as the phrase goes, but in his case it was true, or
so they assured me. He had suffered little, physically, and somewhere in the
night his heart had simply stopped.
My mother, a couple of years
later, was awoken as she was every day, by an assistant serving her morning cup
of tea in bed. (Do I need to remind you that this is a Nursing Home in
England?)
When they returned to get
the cup, it was empty and Mum was dead. What a way to go!
She looked so at peace, the
undertaker told me. Of course, he was a lifelong friend, so he might have been
saying what I wanted to hear, but I choose not to think so.
My very best hope is that I
might emulate my mother’s death, though I have a longtime recovering-alcoholic
friend who says it’s more likely that in my case I will swig a pint and then
fall off my barstool.
Whatever!  As long as it’s swift and sudden.  And for that I have very good genes!
© 13 October 2014 
About
the Author 
 I
was born and raised in England. After graduation from college there, I moved to
the U.S. and, having discovered Colorado, never left. I have lived in the
Denver-Boulder area since 1965, working for 30 years at IBM. I married, raised
four stepchildren, then got divorced after finally, in my forties, accepting
myself as a lesbian. I have now been with my wonderful partner Betsy for 25
years.