Why Me?, by EyM

Feeling weak like a small brittle twig,
commonly bombards in the face of horribly distressing news about a loved one.  
 “Why Me”?
 Why this devastation?  
Timidly cries out of lips once speaking vibrant life
 so bright, so beautiful.
We humans all gathered about the suffering person may feel powerless unable to stop the agony. 
Then we, fragile human twigs surround
this hurting person, one by one, side by side,
all around and all under.
In numbers, twigs become a sturdy sustaining nest. 
Securely held our loved one rests
in comfort strong. 
No longer alone, together, solidly held
in endless power, even eternally united.
Why me? 
How amazing to be a human twig in a caring nest of divine providence.
© 21 Jan 2018 
About the Author 
A native of Colorado, she followed her Dad to the workbench to develop a love of using tools, building things and solving problems. Her Mother supported her talents in the arts. She sang her first solo at age 8. Childhood memories include playing cowboy with a real horse in the great outdoors. Professional involvements have included music, teaching, human services, and being a helper and handywoman. Her writing reflects her sixties identity and a noted fascination with nature, people and human causes. For Eydie, life is deep and joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.

No White Wash, by Eym

Winter beds down the earth. Its plush blanket white floats and fills like down. Brilliance from sunshine may launch a startle to the eyes. Snow lives its life unchanged from chill and fall to warm and soak. Never withholds, this white of winter, from anything below its deep wide mother sky. It gives with total acceptance. Though we name it purist white, this blanket symphony requires myriad colors.

Forest rich and green, skies so blue or gray or white gleam back from the face of a lake. Water clear contributes not one color of its own. Water as snow made crisp in cold a color cannot own. From afar our blue marble earth rests on vast dark sand. Soaring down to more closely perceive, the peoples are no more white than snow. Like water of lake or winter’s crystal the flow of humankind reflects all color and cultures.

In the storm of snow the fluff of human bias or opinion evaporates into the bracing breeze. Only silly ice in thinking prevents the wholeness of peace. If colors appearing this winter seem only white, the ice of ignorance has formed a path so slippery and so thin.

A holy and diverse yet common love connects us one to another. The colors of winter subtle and true remain the reflection of the whole in all our sacred lovely earth. Winter water widely nourishes all the earth and all the creatures as one.

© Dec 2016

About the Author

A native of Colorado, Eydie followed her Dad to the work bench to develop a love of using tools, building things and solving problems. Her Mother supported her talents in the arts. She sang her first solo at age 8. Childhood memories include playing cowboy with a real horse in the great outdoors. Professional involvements have included music, teaching, human services, and being a helper and handy woman. Her writing reflects her sixties identity and a noted fascination with nature, people. and human causes. For Eydie, life is deep and joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.

Our Path, by EyM

True leaders
willingly follow.
Best leading
tunes in, listens, cares, inspires,
and then
moves upward.
Maybe the
loneliest person is the one
who could
never learn to share,
so clamored
instead to take control.
If well
trained unworthiness kneels
at the feet
of the selfish controller, oppression results.
There on top
of their own oppression,
ever pushing
downward,
the
controller has no chance to rise.
No one comes
to them on the tennis court of life,
to receive
their perfect deadly serve.
The domineer
stands waiting ball in hand in,
completely in
control, and completely alone.
The upward
path emerges from courageous sharing
and the ever
liberating ability to trust.
A true and
strong light shines from each person
and standing
side by side these lights
make bright
the path for everyone
to travel
onward, and upward
together.
© October 2014 
About the Author 
 A native of
Colorado, she followed her Dad to the work bench to develop a love of using
tools, building things and solving problems. Her Mother supported her talents
in the arts. She sang her first solo at age 8. Childhood memories include
playing cowboy with a real horse in the great outdoors. Professional
involvements have included music, teaching, human services, and being a helper
and handy woman. Her writing reflects her sixties identity and a noted
fascination with nature, people and human causes. For Eydie, life is deep and
joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.

Color Truth, by Eym

Rainbows display more colors than we may ever know.  As with human beings, the parade of true
colors in nature out marches the imagination of anyone.
Some sort of green tulip leaves now flop upward above the dull yet
crunchy brown dirt.  They pose near a
plastic white fence my dogs and I pass.  We
walk by them into many shades of gray pavement. 
My little pals reveal shiny ebony with trim of yummy caramel tan.  Tires, like shoes on cars, stand there.
Though also black, tires show a different tint next to my short dog boys.  For some reason the cars perching in their
stalls display shades of gray pavement.
I do not understand why any safety minded person would make cars the same
color as pavement or cement roads.  Perhaps
some gone-wild logic of marketing believes that pavement gray cars look
convincingly more road worthy.  Maybe we
actually need to hide from a hoard of unseen sky marauding aliens that peer down
at us as we travel about.  Both of these
angles seem to overlook the obvious interpretation I make.  It is harder to safely see gray cars on gray
roads.
Amid my gray worry, I must admit I have never walked into any of these
gray cars resting there in parking lot 3. 
This suggests that even in plain ole boring gray the variety of colors
out runs my imagination.  The challenge
of trying to match greens while in art school served to restate the same
humbling truth.
By standard description our rainbow offers only six colors as it glows
against the special backdrop of generous rain clouds.  This short sided summary leads us to miss a
good deal of natural wonder.  Springtime
will soon give us new encouraging colors. 
Could it be that part of this surprise, year after year, stems from the
unrealized diversity of true colors in flowers.
It is always springtime when we are really getting know another person,
or when we are becoming the person we truly can be.  Just like flowers and rainbows, an amazing
variety of true colors unfold in a lovely endless surprise of creation.
© Feb 2016

 

About the Author

A native of
Colorado, she followed her Dad to the work bench to develop a love of using
tools, building things and solving problems. Her Mother supported her talents
in the arts. She sang her first solo at age 8. Childhood memories include
playing cowboy with a real horse in the great outdoors. Professional
involvements have included music, teaching, human services, and being a helper
and handy woman. Her writing reflects her sixties identity and a noted
fascination with nature, people and human causes. For Eydie, life is deep and
joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.

To Peggy, My Horse, by EyM

Moments
away in your humble little barn filled me deeply.  I savored the rich natural smells, and loved
so well your big deep brown eyes, 
and  the warm air from your soft
nostrils.  So carefully you moved your
big puffy lips to take my gifts.  These
were moments precious and forever true.
Never
was there a brown so lovely as your hair. 
Never was there a cologne so soothing as your smell.  Never was a flower’s aroma any sweeter than
the hay where we communed.  I believe my
visits were deep in your heart too.  You
were my get away, my comforter.
I
loved to climb on your back and hug you as you lay on the ground.  You made me laugh as you got up so smoothly
that I could hang on and go up with you. 
Looking back now, you always took me to the barn.  I suppose you knew I’d give you some grain
and my little hand full of hay. 
When
we saddled up and traveled from there, someone else was with us and talk took
over.  I trusted you and reveled in those
rides.  But the times alone with you at
your hay window were more special.  Those
were the secret healing heart times. 
Thank you Peggy.  I think you
understood that I needed you.
© 28 Sep 2015 
About the Author 
A native of Colorado, she followed her Dad to
the work bench to develop a love of using tools, building things and solving
problems. Her Mother supported her talents in the arts. She sang her first solo
at age 8. Childhood memories include playing cowboy with a real horse in the
great outdoors. Professional involvements have included music, teaching, human
services, and being a helper and handy woman. Her writing reflects her sixties
identity and a noted fascination with nature, people and human causes. For
Eydie, life is deep and joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.

Cowgirls Come on Out, by EyM

Roy Rogers exuded cool.
He wore his neck scarf knot to the side. Roy Rogers always impressed Dale
Evans. So naturally when my little 8 year old wanna-be cowboy body and soul
craved to impress a girl, I copied him. Sure enough that scarf sat over my
jugular as I stood there wide-eyed looking into my Mother’s dresser mirror. My
exuberant rendition of a TV ad “Going out on a date in my Rocket V-8!” flew out
of my mouth full blast and full volume. Shame followed long after with
startling fear that I could have been heard. This magical mirrored moment
undeniably marks my early lesbian feelings.

Before that, my Father completely perplexed me when he shamed me at age 6 for asking if my neighbor, a boy, could stay all night and sleep outside with me in the tent. It took years to know just what his problem was. It took even longer to know that it was all his problem.

In first grade, oh how I wanted to impress Susan. I lovingly wired rag strips from the rag drawer to a piece of broomstick I cut just for her. I strutted on my Schwinn to her house to present the wonderful homemade mop. I grasped the bag at the top of the mop head and thrust the stick handle out with great flair. But ugh, only the stick came out.
It’s icky that I still feel embarrassed by the failed mop mistake, and even worse to hold the fear that my Rocket V-8 date song had been heard. How messed up is that? How messed up was the mid 50’s world that dumped so much shame. Obviously, our work is just beginning if even one little cowgirl or cowboy heart feels shame for who they are.
My Dad never really got it. “Don’t hang out in the back of the church with the boys! It just doesn’t look right!” Boys got to be ushers. He didn’t know how much I was one of the boys.
This year, about 60 years later, you cowgirls Barrel Racers took my breath away. Watching you young women fervently running your horses around those barrels was delicious to watch!
That was me as a teen. What a great full circle awakening. Thank you cowgirls. I don’t care how you tie your scarves. You rock! You RIDE! Oh how you ride, right here in my heart.
© 30 Sep 2015 
About the Author 
A native of Colorado, she followed her Dad to the work bench to develop a love of using tools, building things and solving problems. Her Mother supported her talents in the arts. She sang her first solo at age 8. Childhood memories include playing cowboy with a real horse in the great outdoors. Professional involvements have included music, teaching, human services, and being a helper and handy woman. Her writing reflects her sixties identity and a noted fascination with nature, people and human causes. For Eydie, life is deep and joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.

The Idiom Maniac by EyM

Caught in the storm and down in the doldrums, she thought she had it made in the shade, when like greased lightening he came like a bolt out of the blue. Surely her dry spell would end and he would be the silver lining of her clouds. On cloud nine she threw caution to the wind and began to shoot the breeze. But one look rained on her parade as he was 7 sheets to the wind and looked like the twilight zone. Her thunder was stolen. Right as rain there was a cloud on her horizon. Always chasing rainbows, she hoped this blue sky would brighten up her day. But alas this guy in a fog had a cloud of suspicion over him. So not to give him the cold shoulder, she asked for a rain check .

So much for any port in a storm. She drew a blank. This was no piece of cake. Even though she felt like a basket case, she would have to play it by ear. She hoped her goose was not cooked.

Wouldn’t you know it, just then someone started making eyes at her. She wanted to turn on a dime and head for the hills. But she crossed her fingers and listened to the bee in her bonnet. To this knight in shining armor, she said “A little birdie told me you love to cut a rug.” Her match made in heaven replied, “No comprendo English senorita.”

© October 2014

About the Author

A native of Colorado, she followed her Dad to the work bench to develop a love of using tools, building things and solving problems. Her Mother supported her talents in the arts. She sang her first solo at age 8. Childhood memories include playing cowboy with a real horse in the great outdoors. Professional involvements have included music, teaching, human services, and being a helper and handy woman. Her writing reflects her sixties identity and a noted fascination with nature, people and human causes. For Eydie, life is deep and joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.

Trust, by EyM

Who can we trust these days? I don’t like hearing that question very much whether it’s out of someone’s mouth or in my own head. We have enormous nationwide organizations that have filled their rapid and powerful information streams with so much debris that we could fear that our trusted bridges of decency may well smash into their polluted rage.

Constant personal vigilance is vital to avoid compromising our health by eating from the once trust worthy American food industry. A slew of companies now make billions from selling products of horrible quality. Our landfills bulge with much of this unusable merchandise. The challenge of buying products that have provided American people with jobs discourages even the tenacious seeker. Is the label declaration “Made in the USA “ still true?

Labels on bottles and boxes very often give addresses on USA soil as though thousands work here to make and handle these items and pay taxes to our country. But sadly in truth these addresses have only a small mail processing team.

Well paid CEO’s often wave the flag and claim a good guy image while taking their huge pay checks in a foreign bank to avoid paying the taxes they owe the USA. On our soil customers pay taxes and keep money going into executive pockets atop their dirty swill. Yes they may hire to sell their products in retail and service markets but they continuously maneuver to keep their payrolls lower and lower. This means lower and lower pay checks. This means lower and lower standard of living. This also means extreme performance pressure amid a fearful climate were long standing, high quality workers get fired. Upper management flings well seasoned integrity and loyalty to the curb for lesser paid inexperienced beginners.

Someone has said that when money becomes the morality, there is no morality. To keep our honor, we must resist the decay of our American morals as best we can. Yet bread winners of every ilk often face a necessity to settle for these substandard employers.

Of course in this neurotic competition, ugly personalities rear their maladjusted heads. How do we manage our resentment? How do we forgive? How do we continue to serve one another?

Really, I know we each have different needs. At times or in some ways we each need more from the people who surround us. I know that I do. To compensate, I try to give a lot.

I trust that if we listen in our true hearts, we give as we are intended to. On rare moments we get to see it happen. In those moments we get to see that we do makes a difference. Those are deep beautiful, even humbling moments. I trust in this worldwide mysterious truth, because it builds, touches, heals, wider than any ONE of us could design. Having a sense of this intangible reality inspires me. What a relief to be on that worldwide, even sacred, team.

~
The Possible Healing of a Lonely Place
by Eydie McDaniel

Some times lonely places press inside, out of sight. Some generate a more observable picture.

Once in the middle of a dark night the squeal of a straining voice awakened me. The much softer voice of the neighbor lady next door attempted to reply telling him to go to the police station to ask about his stolen items. My heart ached for this shivering desperate man, alone outdoors, without his bedroll, and without his food. How harsh, how unfair! My household snuggled safe and warm. Even our animals had it better than a homeless person.

Some hearts hide in fear. Even today, some hearts feel they must hide their precious love. The heritage of old judgmental cruelty still lingers. Some seniors where I live at Windsor Gardens have struggled decades with a hidden, lonely place inside. I wonder how many people have carried the secret of their attractions all alone to their grave. I wonder how much greatness we have all missed because hiding who you are robs so much of the energy it takes to ever become your very best.

Windsor Gardens of Denver happens to be one of very few senior housing organizations noble enough to sanction a club that could help heal this pain. An ad listed as LGBT Club now appears in ‘Windsor Life’. It promotes monthly meetings right here where an unknown number of seniors with diverse intimate identities make their home. Since it formally began in February, now 9 months ago, some 55 individuals have participated with an average attendance of 28.

The abbreviation LGBT, one of the common markings, stands for Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgendered. Choices of abbreviations vary and may include: GLBT, LGBTIQ, etc. Here at WG we simply call ourselves PRIDE Windsor Gardens.”

PRIDE Windsor Gardens has no agenda to change anything or anyone. Just as in any group here, it feels good to find meaningful affinity with our neighbors. Its programs have included an array of community leaders as guest speakers. It seeks to build ongoing positive strength as a member of the Windsor Gardens community, the wider gay community of Denver, and as its own social community.

We are PRIDE Windsor Gardens, Alive and Welcome. So diverse residents of Windsor Gardens, “ALL ABOARD” Come in out of your cold dark night. All you have to lose is your loneliness.

© October 2014

About the Author


A native of Colorado, she followed her Dad to the work bench to develop a love of using tools, building things and solving problems. Her Mother supported her talents in the arts. She sang her first solo at age 8. Childhood memories include playing cowboy with a real horse in the great outdoors. Professional involvements have included music, teaching, human services, and being a helper and handy woman. Her writing reflects her sixties identity and a noted fascination with nature, people and human causes. For Eydie, life is deep and joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.

Our Path, by EyM

True leaders willingly follow.
Best leading tunes in, listens, cares, inspires,
and moves upward.

Maybe the loneliest person is the one
who could never learn to share,
so clamored instead to take control.

If well trained unworthiness kneels
at the feet of the selfish controller,
oppression results.

There on top of their own oppression,
ever pushing downward,
the controller has no chance to rise.

No one comes to them on the tennis court of
life,
to receive their perfect deadly serve.

There stands the domineering controller waiting,
ball in hand ,
completely in control,
and completely alone.

An upward path emerges from courageous sharing
and the ever liberating ability to trust.

A true and strong light shines from each person.
Standing side by side these lights
make bright the path for everyone
to travel onward and upward
together.

© October 2014 


About the Author 


A native of Colorado, she followed her Dad to the work bench
to develop a love of using tools, building things and solving problems. Her
Mother supported her talents in the arts. She sang her first solo at age 8.
Childhood memories include playing cowboy with a real horse in the great
outdoors. Professional involvements have included music, teaching, human
services, and being a helper and handy woman. Her writing reflects her sixties
identity and a noted fascination with nature, people and human causes. For
Eydie, life is deep and joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.

The Idiom Maniac, by EyM

Caught in the storm and down in the doldrums, she thought she had it made in the shade, when like greased lightening he came like a bolt out of the blue. Surely her dry spell would end and he would be the silver lining of her clouds. On cloud nine she threw caution to the wind and began to shoot the breeze. But one look rained on her parade as he was 7 sheets in the wind and looked like the twilight zone. Her thunder was stolen. Right as rain there was a cloud on her horizon. Always chasing rainbows, she hoped this blue sky would brighten up her day. But alas this guy in a fog had a cloud of suspicion over him. So not to give him the cold shoulder, she asked for a rain check .

So much for any port in a storm. She drew a blank. This was no piece of cake. Even though she felt like a basket case, she would have to play it by ear. She hoped her goose was not cooked.

Wouldn’t you know it, just then someone started making eyes at her. She wanted to turn on a dime and head for the hills. But she crossed her fingers and listened to the bee in her bonnet. To this knight in shining armor, she said “A little birdie told me you love to cut a rug.” Her match made in heaven replied, “No comprendo English senorita.”

© October 2014

About the Author

A native of Colorado, she followed her Dad to the work bench
to develop a love of using tools, building things and solving problems. Her
Mother supported her talents in the arts. She sang her first solo at age 8.
Childhood memories include playing cowboy with a real horse in the great outdoors.
Professional involvements have included music, teaching, human services, and
being a helper and handy woman. Her writing reflects her sixties identity and a
noted fascination with nature, people and human causes. For Eydie, life is deep
and joyous, ever challenging and so much fun.