Music, by Ricky

I like music. I like music from before the 30’s, 40’s, 50’s, and 60’s. I like certain pieces of popular music after the 50’s. I haven’t heard any thing DJ’s play from the 90’s and beyond that sounds like music; all I hear is yelling, screeching, and eardrum shattering noise. I recently learned to appreciate opera although I’ve enjoyed classical and Baroque music for decades. I’ve always enjoyed many types of music from my earliest days; here’s why.

When I was about 3 or 4 years old living in Redondo Beach, CA (a bedroom community west of Los Angeles), my parents bought me my own record-player for children. It was about 10-inches wide by 8-inches long, 6-inches tall with the lid closed, and weighed about 7 pounds. The lid was white and the base was bright red. The player only played 78’s. My parents also supplied me with 18 double-sided children size records, thus giving me 36 songs or stories to listen to and sing the songs while the record was playing.

While visiting my brother and sister at Lake Tahoe this past summer, I found my old record album containing a few of my childhood records. I am passing it around so you not only can see the music that started my enjoyment but also to perhaps stimulate some “ancient” memories of your childhood. I had not seen these in over 55-years so it was quite a memory shock to see, hold, and listen to them all again scratchy and juvenile as they are. Many happy hours in that album.

At the age of 5 my parents enrolled me in accordion lessons. They even got me a “loaner” child size accordion and later bought me a much larger adolescent size one. I chose to play the accordion because of watching Myron Florin play one every week on the Lawrence Welk TV show. Naturally, I had to learn to read music but my inherent laziness kicked in and I found all available opportunities not to practice. I had to be fairly sneaky about not practicing because getting caught always resulted in a spanking. I guess my parents didn’t like the idea of paying for lessons that were not being productive enough; how perfectly parental that was.

At 6-years old I started 1st grade, attending the Hawthorne Christian School, I somehow ended up in a band class part of each day. They did not teach accordion there, so I switched to learning how to play the trumpet. The best I could do was making real musical type notes come out and not the amplified breathless “ppppppptttt” sounds that novice beginners make. The accordion had actual keys, one for each note, while the trumpet had three valves that had to be open or closed in cahoots with one another to make the proper note. I never did really get the hang of it so I was very grateful when the trumpet had to be returned to its rightful owner.

When I was seven, the first song by the Chipmunks came out and soon thereafter (or maybe before) came Andy Griffith’s, What It Was, Football and I learned I liked humorous songs and stories on the radio.

Only a few days before my 8th birthday, I was sent to live with my grandparents on their farm in central Minnesota. My musical preferences expanded as the birth of rock-n-roll previously had taken place. On the farm also lived my 3 ½ year older than me uncle. About 6-months after my arrival, he purchased and brought home a 45-rpm record with a song by Jimmie Rogers titled Honeycomb (my first rock song and I remember it to this day). Enamored by the song, I kept pestering my uncle to let me play it. I have no idea what song was on the flip side. Soon after, the DJ’s of the day began playing Johnny Horton’s Sink the Bismarck and The Battle of New Orleans and I was hooked on those styles of music.

In my school at Minnesota, 3rd and 4th grade classes had to (I mean got to) take music lessons. (We also got to recite the Pledge of Allegiance, which set me up for patriotism.) The whole class learned to play the Flute-a-Phone (now called a Recorder). We would practice different pieces of music and every year at Christmas time; all the classes sat together in the auditorium and at the appropriate place in the program, played the same piece of music, Flute-a-Phones on Parade. Do any of you remember the sound a recorder makes? A sort of high-pitched teakettle whistle which changes pitch according to which holes are covered or uncovered by the player. Back then, it sounded nice to me, but in recent performances, I have been to, it just sounded like wounded teakettles sounding off, each with a slightly different pitch and definitely without harmony, but I clapped and applauded anyway—not so much to reward the children, but because I was glad, it was finished. I guess the performance was a type of payback for what I put my grandparents through when I played.

The Christmas holiday period always filled the air and airwaves with beautiful carols and holiday music. The idea of receiving gifts of toys and other fun things (not clothes, socks, or underwear) made it easy to like the music that emphasized that Christmas Eve and day were near; using the same principle of “guilty by association”, Christmas holiday is good therefore holiday music is good. I was in a restaurant last Friday night and I began to tear-up and had a warm-fuzzy feeling all over when two of my favorite carols began to play; one was Oh Holy Night and I do not recall the other.

When the school would allow boys and girls out an hour early, IF they were going to sing in the local Lutheran Church’s Christmas Pageant, I went to sing there. That’s were I really learned to like Christmas songs. Of course, I already knew Frosty the Snowman and Rudolph the Red-nose Reindeer and Jingle Bells, but they were not the songs on the program, so I fell in love with all the religious carols. During practice sessions though, we were allowed to sing the fun songs they just were not on the program.

Just as I turned 10, my mother and new stepfather came to Minnesota and retrieved me. We went to live in California at South Lake Tahoe. Because I spent the majority of my time babysitting my brother and sister, I increased my reading of books to soften the boredom. Once I found my mother’s record collection, and had some spending money to buy my own albums, my taste in music further expanded. My mother had a multiple record Nat King Cole album and a multiple record Bing Crosby album of Christmas songs; both were 78-rpm “platters.” My favorite was White Christmas, the song that nearly did not get sung in the movie Holiday Inn because the producers did not think it worthy but, they needed a little “filler” so, in it went and the rest is history. That particular song by Bing always brings tears to my eyes now as I look back across the years into my past.

When not reading books and magazines or playing outside with my siblings, I would be playing music. Mother had some classical stuff I liked to listen to because it was so beautiful, melodic, and organized. I also bought Vaughn Meader’s First Family albums, both 1 and 2. Other favorites were Johnny Horton’s greatest hits album and my patriotic nirvana music; an album of John Phillip Sousa marches of which Stars and Stripes Forever is my favorite. If you ever see me playing it, you would also see me conducting it, even if I am walking down the street listening to it on my iPod. More albums I had: The Planets, The Nutcracker, Pictures at an Exhibition, Goldfinger, Thunderball, Songs of the North & South, The War of 1812, Handel’s Messiah, and one with the overture to William Tell.

Living at Lake Tahoe kept me in a sheltered environment musically speaking. The one radio station only played non-rock-n-roll music; show tunes from performers at the casinos, or movie soundtracks, or music by Bing Crosby, Pat Boone, Doris Day, Dean Martin, and the like; so, no Beatles music for me. My wife grew up a military brat so she was in love with Beatles music and owned all of their albums. I only learned to enjoy and like a limited number of their songs after we married AND as music deteriorated into the present cacophony of noise. I still like certain pieces beyond the 50’s like the long version of Inna-Gadda-da-Vida and nearly all of the Beach Boys with Johnny Cash, Marty Robbins, The Righteous Brothers, and Simon & Garfunkel thrown into the mix.

As time progressed and music deteriorated, I realized that much of the 60’s and 70’s music I hated began to sound pretty good after all. In any case, that is how and why I ended up enjoying music of different types and quality.

© 16 May 2012

About the Author

I was born in June of 1948 in Los Angeles, living first in Lawndale and then in Redondo Beach. Just prior to turning 8 years old in 1956, I began living with my grandparents on their farm in Isanti County, Minnesota for two years during which time my parents divorced.

When united with my mother and stepfather two years later in 1958, I lived first at Emerald Bay and then at South Lake Tahoe, California, graduating from South Tahoe High School in 1966. After three tours of duty with the Air Force, I moved to Denver, Colorado where I lived with my wife and four children until her passing away from complications of breast cancer four days after the 9-11 terrorist attack.

I came out as a gay man in the summer of 2010. I find writing these memories to be therapeutic.

My story blog is TheTahoeBoy.Blogspot.com

Fitness, by Phillip Hoyle

I certainly am no fitness fanatic. It only takes a glance to know that. But there was a two-year period in my life when I went to the gym twice a week to exercise. I started at age 41 a couple of months after the Senior Minister of our congregation unexpectedly died at age 51. Like him I had some extra weight. I knew I was in for a lot of work dealing with a mourning congregation, an interim Senior Minister (turned out to be two of them, the first one who exuded negative assessment and power, the second one who had brain damage from an automobile accident), and the adjustments to the arrival of a new Senior Minister. A choir member suggested I join with her, my wife, and the church’s Administrative Assistant at a nearby gym for a twice-weekly noon-time Super Circuit. She thought we’d enjoy it.

Super Circuit combines aerobic with strength exercises. Each one-hour session began with warm-ups. Then the over-enthusiastic leader blew her whistle to begin the circuit. I’d walk to a near-by machine, set the weight, and do 12 or 15 reps working my abs, pecs, delts, lats, quads, or another muscle group. Finishing that I’d join in jogging, jumping rope, doing chin ups (I’m sure I could do one), walking on the treadmill, pedaling my way nowhere on a stationary bike, or some other option. The next whistle blow called us to the next station just counter-clock-wise to the first. In addition to the machines, the stations included a bench press, a place to do crunches, and other techniques of self-torture. The back and forth between stations and aerobics lasted 45 minutes. No stopping. When the last whistle blew, we’d gather back in the original assembly for stretches. Then it was off to the shower room. After that our little trio would drag ourselves about three blocks to Subway for vegetarian sandwiches and a Sprite. Numb, I’d return to work.

Did I get fit? Yes. After several months, about the same time my knees quit aching, I realized I could sing with an ease I had never before achieved. I reasoned it was the combination of aerobic (breath control) and strength (core development) that served me well.

Asking “Did I enjoy it?” seems appropriate. I didn’t lose any weight but I did feel fat turn into muscle. I was amused that I pressed more weight with my legs than either of the two younger buff athletic men in the class. Myrna and Maggie dropped out after a couple of months. I persisted two years during the interim and first months of the new Senior Minister. Then I made my escape, a story I’ve already told in this group.

When I moved to Albuquerque I located a gym near the church, but they had neither Super Circuit nor showers. Since my budget was already stretched I quit fitness training and eventually signed up for voice lessons.

When at age 51 I dropped out of polite society, I went to massage school. For the next fifteen years I did exercises like I had never experienced before. When I realized I had developed my biceps and triceps, I made my kids and grandkids feel them. Grandpa was becoming more fit than ever in his life, and I got paid for doing so. Now that was years ago. I’ll make no further comment except to use a phrase I learned from the Senior Minister whose death sent me to the gym. “Don’t throw a fit and fall in it.”

© 31 July 2017

About the Author

Phillip Hoyle lives in Denver and spends his time writing, painting, and socializing. In general he keeps busy with groups of writers and artists. Following thirty-two years in church work and fifteen in a therapeutic massage practice, he now focuses on creating beauty. He volunteers at The Center leading the SAGE program “Telling Your Story.”

He also blogs at artandmorebyphilhoyle.blogspot.com

Flowers, by Lewis T

Roses are red;

Violets are blue;

Unless and until

They come into contact

With Lew.


Oh, I do have a green thumb; it’s about the color of swamp water. Laurin was the horticulturist between us. I used to fill the watering can and lift the 20-lb. bags of potting soil. He made the magic happen. When I order flowers online, they usually arrive pre-dead. A year ago, my ex-wife, who knows me well enough to know better, sent me an amaryllis. Somehow, I was able to keep it alive until it had finished blooming. I followed the directions to the letter as to how to “winterize” the bulbs and preserve them for the next blooming season. In early January, I was supposed to replant them and keep them watered until they bloomed again. I still haven’t done that. I’m afraid that they may actually recover and then I would be on the hook to watch over them for another nine months. If anyone would care to lift this burden from me, I would be happy to give them to you.

© 13 February 2017

About the Author

I came to the beautiful state of Colorado out of my native Kansas by way of Michigan, the state where I married and I came to the beautiful state of Colorado out of my native Kansas by way of Michigan, the state where I married and had two children while working as an engineer for the Ford Motor Company. I was married to a wonderful woman for 26 happy years and suddenly realized that life was passing me by. I figured that I should make a change, as our offspring were basically on their own and I wasn’t getting any younger. Luckily, a very attractive and personable man just happened to be crossing my path at that time, so the change-over was both fortuitous and smooth. Soon after, I retired and we moved to Denver, my husband’s home town. He passed away after 13 blissful years together in October of 2012. I am left to find a new path to fulfillment. One possibility is through writing. Thank goodness, the SAGE Creative Writing Group was there to light the way.

Assumptions, by Gillian

We all know the old saying that if you ass/u/me, you simply make an ass of u and me. I enjoy plays on words, so I like that one. It is also absolutely true. Assumptions of any kind are never safe, and we’re frequently sorry. We learn pretty fast about many assumptions we should never make: the bus/plane/train will leave or arrive on time, teachers and parents are always right and life is always fair, if I always tell the truth I will be rewarded, and Mr. Right will come along and we will live happily ever after.

As we get older, we adjust to more subtle assumptions we should not make. Self-improvement books tell us not to assume everything in the world is about us; indeed, to remind ourselves on many occasions, this is not about me. Similarly the assumption we make that we constantly need to offer our opinions is erroneous. One book has an entire chapter challenging me constantly to ask myself, Why Am I Talking?

Erroneous assumptions about any given situation often turn out to be very embarrassing, even under circumstances where no-one else knows the assumptions I was making in my own heads. One of my favorite stories on these lines is from when I was somewhere in my mid-thirties. I managed an IBM department which employed several temporary employees in addition to the permanent staff. I began to notice one of the latest temporaries, a very attractive young man, eyeing me a little too often; a little too much. I groaned to myself. This was not good. I was married.

I was going to have to deal with this situation. And soon. Lo and behold, only a couple of days later, the man came into my office. He shuffled his feet and looked a little uncomfortable. Then he said,

‘Sorry if you’ve noticed me staring at you. I’m kind of embarrassed but I have to tell you. You remind me so very much of my mother.’

And if that statement doesn’t take the wind out of a girl’s sails, then I don’t know what does!

Although I have told the story quite often since, at the time I was so very glad that I had told no-one about this sexy young man who clearly had the hots for me!

Assumptions must change constantly with changes in time and space and circumstances, but I missed the boat on that one.

Changing political assumptions, now, another boat I missed although I did run to catch a later one. Growing up in in the extremely socialist Britain of the 1950’s, I always assumes that The Government, always with a psychological capital G, had my very best interests at heart. The very existence of The Government was in order to make my life better. I never once questioned that assumption. I had no doubts. Then, in this country, I encountered the likes of Reagan and Nixon and one more assumption bit the dust. That assumption was, of course, doomed, wherever I lived. Had I stayed in the UK it would have died just as swiftly, as the socialist Britain of my youth crumbled under the weight of Margaret Thatcher’s conservatism. I certainly see nothing in the current political scene that hints of any revival.

So as we age we leave a trail of broken and battered assumptions in our wake. Not that I claim to miss them much; their absence doubtless leaves me with a healthier, saner, ability to make rational decisions. But I notice, as I age, an occasional new assumption insinuates itself. I always assume, for instance, that at my time of life it is not a good idea to buy green bananas.

© March 2017

About the Author

I was born and raised in England. After graduation from college there, I moved to the U.S. and, having discovered Colorado, never left. I have lived in the Denver-Boulder area since 1965, working for 30 years at IBM. I married, raised four stepchildren, then got divorced after finally, in my forties, accepting myself as a lesbian. I have been with my wonderful partner Betsy for thirty years. We have been married since 2013.

September 11, 2001, by Gillian

I had signed up with Denver Museum of Nature and Science for a daylong tour of the Lakewood Brick Company on September 11th of 2001. We lived in East Denver at that time, so I left the house early for what I anticipated to be about a forty-five minute drive during the morning rush hour. I was astonished to find myself driving unimpeded along almost empty streets. Was this a holiday I had forgotten? One of those newer ones, perhaps? No. Many people were not excused work on those holidays; not enough to make for this absence of traffic. And anyway the museum would not have scheduled a tour on a holiday. I was driving my old pickup without a functioning radio, so could not get any news. I had not turned on the TV before leaving home. I was puzzled. Puzzled, but not worried. Arriving early due to this lack of traffic, I popped into King Soopers to get a snack for lunch. There was something strange about the store, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on what. The few customers were standing about in small groups, talking. So, I realized, were the employees. I felt a little shiver of apprehension.

‘What’s going on?’ I asked three women huddled together in the deli. ‘Has something happened?’

That opened the floodgates. They tumbled over each other to tell me all they knew, which really was not very much. Or at least not very much for sure. Amongst all the utterances of I heard and they think and a lot of maybe this and maybe that, I gathered that a plane had been highjacked and flown into a building in New York.

‘And now they think,’ said one woman in a breathless whisper, ‘there’s another plane been highjacked, too.’

For all the lack of hard facts, clearly something really bad had happened; was happening. What to do? Should I just go back home? Were they still going to have the tour? I decided at least to check in at the Brick Company, where less than half of the scheduled number actually turned up, but we decided to go ahead with the tour as scheduled.

It simply did not work. This was before the days of everyone having a smartphone, but some had cel phones. There were constant calls home and relayings of the latest updates to the rest of us. We were all distracted, to say the least. It was the one day in our lives that we could muster absolutely no interest in the making of bricks. It took little discussion to cancel the rest of the tour and just go home.

Now we live not far from Lakewood Brick Company and pass it quite frequently. But no matter how much time passes between that terrible day and this, I never see it without feeling a lurch of my stomach. I return instantly, if only for an instant, to that feeling of nausea and fear and dread and overwhelming sadness. And if, on a very rare occasion, I find the streets unusually quiet, panic starts to grow. What’s wrong? What’s happened? And that’s OK. I should not forget. But to me, the real tragedy of that day is what we made of it. It fills me with a despair beyond sadness. Rather than it bringing us understanding of, and even empathy for, the innocents of the world dying in their numbers everywhere every day, we used it to justify the ever-increased use of our own killing machine; to murder those same innocents. That is a tragedy truly worthy of the name.

© February 2017

About the Author

I was born and raised in England. After graduation from college there, I moved to the U.S. and, having discovered Colorado, never left. I have lived in the Denver-Boulder area since 1965, working for 30 years at IBM. I married, raised four stepchildren, then got divorced after finally, in my forties, accepting myself as a lesbian. I have been with my wonderful partner Betsy for thirty years. We have been married since 2013.

Eyes of Love, by Nicholas

The eyes of my love are blue. A pale blue. The soft blue of a summer morning sky gently waking.

They are sleepy eyes saying good morning.

Sometimes, they are smiling eyes greeting me after I’ve been away.

Sometimes, they are eyes focused on a crossword puzzle, brow furrowed. What’s a three-letter word for love, he calls out. You, I say.

Sometimes, those eyes are more gray with frustration, especially with a computer connection that just won’t work.

Other times, those eyes glare with annoyance or anger at something I did or said. We have a rule in our house: it’s OK to get mad but it is not OK to stay mad. Then we look into each other’s eyes and say I’m sorry.

There have been times when those eyes were dull and downcast and in pain while recovering from illness or a difficult surgery. Gradually, I watched the sparkle come back to those eyes.

A few times, tears have swollen up out of those eyes like the day we both blubbered through our wedding vows.

Sometimes, those eyes look up in surprise catching me just looking at him. What, he says. Oh, nothing, I say.

My favorite, of course, is when those eyes flash with desire and we tumble into one another’s arms and hold on to each other.

The eyes of my love are a pale blue. The eyes I hope to always be in.

© 18 June 2017

About the Author

Nicholas grew up in Cleveland, then grew up in San Francisco, and is now growing up in Denver. He retired from work with non-profits in 2009 and now bicycles, gardens, cooks, does yoga, writes stories, and loves to go out for coffee.

Family, by Lewis

My family of origin was a hybrid between Blondie and Sleeping Beauty—a marriage of a passive but caring father and a resentful, frustrated mother. I, as the only child, quickly learned that the combination meant that I could have a great deal of freedom to do as I pleased but that the consequences would be severe should I ever be caught crossing “the line”. It taught me to be out-of-sight so as to be out-of-mind, how to be a “people-pleaser”, and, later, how to hide my sexual identity.

My father was the oldest of four brothers growing up on a farm in south-central Kansas. I never knew either of his parents as I came along when he was thirty-five and both had passed away. How he came to be such a gentle, quiet man I can only guess. It may have been that he very early learned how to hide his pain as he quietly watched unseen his mom and pop hold each other and cry as they said “Goodbye” to the farm that was to be their legacy but lost during the Depression. It may have been the polio that he contracted as a senior basketball player in high school. For whatever the reason, he was, as a father, ill-equipped to coach a bright but shy son through the trials and tribulations of growing up gay in mid-20th Century America with a mother who was plainly—in retrospect—unable or unwilling to empathize.

© 5 September 2016

About the Author

I came to the beautiful state of Colorado out of my native Kansas by way of Michigan, the state where I married and I came to the beautiful state of Colorado out of my native Kansas by way of Michigan, the state where I married and had two children while working as an engineer for the Ford Motor Company. I was married to a wonderful woman for 26 happy years and suddenly realized that life was passing me by. I figured that I should make a change, as our offspring were basically on their own and I wasn’t getting any younger. Luckily, a very attractive and personable man just happened to be crossing my path at that time, so the change-over was both fortuitous and smooth. Soon after, I retired and we moved to Denver, my husband’s home town. He passed away after 13 blissful years together in October of 2012. I am left to find a new path to fulfillment. One possibility is through writing. Thank goodness, the SAGE Creative Writing Group was there to light the way.

Walls, by Ray S

It was a grey March morning in 2007, the view looking
south through my dining room window was one of frozen earth and the black
remains of last summer’s garden. The thought came to me in an instant. “No, I
can’t do this again.” “This” was in reference to the task of planting a new
garden, of battling weeds, and tending a too-large lawn. Then too, our little
1940’s spec-ranch style house had suddenly become too much house of one ageing
widower.
After engaging the service of a good family friend and
realtor, the end result was a sale that required new owner occupancy by April
first. “Goodbye” to forty-some years of suburbia and relocation to a small
ground-level apartment, replete with sufficient essential facilities and
surrounded by all white painted interior walls. It was all such a
welcome no brainer not to concern oneself with color, anything works with white
and, besides, this was the beginning of a new, colorful life.
The new life lasted until the bank chose to pursue the
condo’s owner for nonpayment of the bank’s loan. So goes the “white walls.” And
the search for more walls to hang my art stuff, memorabilia, and toothbrush. With
the miraculous touch on the computer apparatus my “darling daughter” phoned me
to say she had found a possible new home for the homeless and aged Pater.
Another phone call arranged a meeting with the owner
of a rental condo near Washington Park; all of this having been discovered by
daughter while browsing the internet and finding the listing on “Craig’s List.”
Here’s the kicker; daughter and I met the owner’s
representative at the prearranged hour. I noted that the front door key and
lock didn’t like each other, but it finally unlocked revealing an apartment
consisting of required living spaces, all six of them including a kitchen and a
bathroom replete with claw foot bath tub, and each room sported a different
color on their respective walls.
Ever since that day it has been one colorful day after
another within my painter’s “Somewhere over the Rainbow” palette walls.
© 24 January 2017 
About the Author 

Hero – Heroine, by Phillip Hoyle

My dad deeply respected two ministers who pastored the
church I grew up in: Brother W.F. Lown and Brother Charles Cook. Both highly
educated men were skillful preachers, fine administrators, and dedicated
ministers. Brother Lown baptized me at a rather early age because I insisted on
it. Several years later he spoke to me about becoming a minister. I was eight
years old when he planted that seed. I started paying attention to what was
being said around the church—sermons, lessons, conversations, and discussions.
When Lown left to become the president of a nearby church-related college, I
got to know Brother Cook, our new minister. I watched him carefully and was
surprised (and probably disappointed) one weekday afternoon at junior high
choir rehearsal when some girls were paying no attention and talking mindlessly
while we were practicing. He yelled, “What in the Sam Hill do you think you are
doing?” He made it clear he wanted us to work not gab. Although I was mildly
shocked, I realized that ministers were people with a full range of emotions.
That was probably the main experience that made it possible for me to actually
become a minister. That day I realized that ministers are human beings not
heroes, well all but one of them.
My hero a minister I started hearing about when I was
a few years older: The Reverend Doctor Martin Luther King, Junior. I paid
attention to his career, preaching, and activism. He eclipsed my attraction to
Billy Graham whom I also greatly respected. King’s power as a speaker got my attention,
but mostly his message of equality for all people made great sense out of the
old gospel message of salvation I had heard since the first Sunday after my
birth. And his message of racial equality filled a void made in my life by our
family’s move from the Army town where I was born to a small county seat town
where there were no African Americans, no persons of Asian descent, and only
two Hispanic people—a mother and her daughter. I missed people who looked,
thought, and lived differently. I missed people who were recent immigrants from
Germany, Japan or Puerto Rico. I missed many friends and neighbors who, thanks
to Kings preaching, I realized weren’t getting a fair shake in America. I liked
the practical, daily, living, moral message of his preaching. And of course I
liked his oratory and forceful leadership. I had a real hero—one who was a
warrior, a leader, a strategist, a public figure who served his people—the
whole people of the United States of America—and who paid the ultimate price
for his courage and leadership.
Years later, when my African Son whom I was visiting
in Memphis, Tennessee took me to the MLK Memorial at the place King was
murdered, I realized this man, unlike activists I met in the late 1970s, was
not living high on the hog. He was staying in an old motel in downtown Memphis.
Nothing fancy. He lived with the least of these his brothers and sisters. And
he was a real human being with the full range of human emotions and experience.
King became my first hero and to date my only one.
© 30 January 2017 
About the Author 
Phillip Hoyle lives in Denver and spends his
time writing, painting, and socializing. In general, he keeps busy with groups
of writers and artists. Following thirty-two years in church work and fifteen
in a therapeutic massage practice, he now focuses on creating beauty. He
volunteers at The Center leading the SAGE program “Telling Your Story.”
He also blogs at artandmorebyphilhoyle.blogspot.com

Queer as a $3 Bill, by Lewis Thompson

I see little in common
between being “queer” (in so far as that term is used in reference to someone’s
sexual orientation) and a “$3 bill”. 
This room at the GBLT Center of Denver is filled with individuals of a
sexual orientation that has been and still is often self-described as “queer”, that
term having lost its pejorative connotation not so long ago.  As for the $3 bill, can I see by a show of
hands how many of us have ever seen one? [pause]
A much more apropos
expression would be “queer as a $2 bill”. 
By this I do not mean to further devalue gays but simply to recognize
the fact that $2 bills exist.  I enjoy
carrying them in my wallet.  For one
thing they are handy for tipping.
This topic begs the
question as to how many of us there are—queer folk, that is.  And are there degrees of queerness?  It is related to flamboyance?  Affect? 
Appearance?  Lifestyle?  In my experience, I would have to say that
the long-tenured belief that queers comprised 10% of the population has long
been discredited, unless you want to include men and women who admire their own
bodies, in which case the number would likely be much, much higher.  Based upon my personal observations, I would
have to estimate the fraction of humans who indentify as queer to be in the
order of 1-2%.  I have attended every one
of Hutchinson, Kansas, High School’s Class of 1964 reunions.  Out of a class of 450, to my knowledge, I am
the only alumnus who is “out of the closet”. 
There are a few “suspicious” characters among the lot but nothing
definitive.  Based upon that unscientific
observation, I would have to conclude that queers comprise about 0.4% of the
general population—roughly equivalent to my estimate of the fraction of $2
bills within the wallets and purses of the American populace.
If it weren’t for our
straight allies, I think we would be much worse off, both spiritually and
physically.  So, allow me to raise a
toast to all those “$1 bills” that have kept us safe and allowed us the freedom
to show our true colors.
© 14 Mar 2016 
About
the Author
 
I came to the
beautiful state of Colorado out of my native Kansas by way of Michigan, the
state where I married and had two
children while working as an engineer for the Ford Motor Company. I was married
to a wonderful woman for 26 happy years and suddenly realized that life was
passing me by. I figured that I should make a change, as our offspring were
basically on their own and I wasn’t getting any younger. Luckily, a very
attractive and personable man just happened to be crossing my path at that
time, so the change-over was both fortuitous and smooth.
Soon after, I
retired and we moved to Denver, my husband’s home town. He passed away after 13
blissful years together in October of 2012. I am left to find a new path to
fulfillment. One possibility is through writing. Thank goodness, the SAGE
Creative Writing Group was there to light the way.